I grew up in a pastor’s home where money was tight. When I wanted something—or even thought I needed something—I often heard the words, “We can’t afford it.” I wore hand-me-downs and rarely had anything new. Maybe you can relate.
That “we can’t afford it” mindset didn’t stop in childhood—it followed me into adulthood. My husband began ministry as a youth pastor, and like many starting in ministry, his income was modest. Before long, our daughters were hearing those same words from us: “We can’t afford it.”
But through it all, God proved Himself faithful again and again.
I remember a time when I was little girl, the only food left in our home was a partial jar of peanut butter and some bread. Out of the blue, a farmer came to our house with groceries. He had 13 kids of his own and not much to spare. He said God had told him to help us. What a miracle!
Years later, my husband had only one suit. It was the one he wore at our wedding. God used another stay-at-home mom with four children to bless him with two brand new suits. I can tell story after story of God’s amazing provision.
Yet, I’m ashamed to admit there were times I allowed a “poor me” mindset to take root. We can’t afford what others can, I’d think. That attitude soured my spirit and may have even closed the door to miracles God wanted to give. At times, I found myself being manipulative to get what I thought I needed.
Here’s what I’ve learned: when we compare ourselves to others, we lose our joy. But when we fix our eyes on Jesus, we start to see how faithfully He provides. He is our loving Father who delights in caring for His children.
Now that I’ve grown a little in maturity, I like to say, “He’s the God of the Then Some!”
When we walk in obedience and trust Him with every need, He not only gives. He often blesses us beyond what we can ask or imagine. We may not get everything we want. But He will supply everything we need and then some. We must be patient and wait on His timing.
Can I encourage you today? Whatever you need, don’t look to others. Don’t feel sorry for yourself. Instead, take it to God and trust Him. He is Jehovah Jireh, our provider!
What about you? Do you have a story of God’s amazing provision?
I’d love for you to share in the comments below. Your testimony may be just what someone else needs to hear today.
Blessings,
Jan McIntyre
“And my God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” – Philippians 4:19
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